You are exactly where you are supposed to be; just in case you needed to hear that right now. Early this morning, focusing on The Izzie Fund, I connected with someone on Instagram. While reviewing her page, I came across a post with the first sentence that read, “Sometimes I get caught up and I lose my why.” She ended her beautifully written message with “And now I stand here in a new awareness. This is my part. I trust the process.”
At the start of every year, I pick a word to set as my focus and intention. In 2017, that word was purpose. Little did I know how poignant that word would become to me. Over the next four years, I suffered loses that had me questioning “what is the purpose of these loses and this pain?” I soon regretted choosing that word and yet, deep in my soul, I knew there was a meaning… a purpose, leading me to a place of hope.
I always pray for God’s angels to help me on this journey. To further define my purpose and keep me focused on the right path. Eye on the prize! It’s easy to get distracted, to feel overwhelmed or underwhelmed. At times, I feel like I should be further along, have a bigger following, have donors knocking on the door with their money, advice, and time. Today, was one of those days. Just then, God sent a message in the form of an Instagram post (of all ways to reach me!) telling me not to get caught up and lose my why.
Why am I doing this? Why am I using every free moment focusing on the charity? I do it because I know what it’s like to hold a loved one in your arms and feel them take their very last breath. I know the incredible pain, honor and blessing that comes with that moment. With Izzie, I also know what it feels like to be at peace with knowing I did everything I could without ever factoring in financial costs that come with that kind of care. I am one of the lucky ones. With The Izzie Fund, we are trying to help remove some of the financial barriers of specialized care in the hope of saving a life. The day after I lost my sweet Izabela, I came across a quote that stopped my heart for just a moment – “I can’t go back to yesterday because I was a different person then” – Alice in Wonderland. It took four years of love, loss and grief to find my purpose. And yes, I am a different person.
Now back to my kindred (Insta) spirit, and her simple yet powerful words…this is my part. We all have a part in making this world a better place, so push forward and operate with purpose!